Letting go of Never Give Up

More winter wonder  at Killerton House Estate yesterday.

This afternoon

I took a wrong turning on my way for a walk and stopped to take a photo at Higher Duryard Valley Park where Robin and I sometimes sat and looked at the view from the car ....remembering how frustrated I used to feel that he didn't want to walk. Letting that thought go now.....

Day 4 of  Improving Your Self Esteem 

is about being willing to let go.....being willing to release all

blame

fear

anger

guilt 

tension

sadness

and 

old limiting beliefs.

Not in one great feast of past memories and their associations but one nibble, one mouthful, one bite at a time. One sentence in front of the mirror at a time.....

I release all sadness.

I let go and I'm at peace.

I suppose affirmations are a bit like praying. Saying words with an intention that they will be received by Grace. Outcome unknown but a request from the heart.

This afternoon as I walked in Mincing Lake Park with the squirrels,

and this tiny hopping wren,

I challenged one of my old limiting beliefs,

"Never give up".

Although the sky was summer blue, the path was a quagmire of red Devon mud, churned up into slippery ruts by dogs and walkers in wellies.

I wasn't wearing wellies and I became more and more miserable as I tried to pick my way along without falling over in my old worn out boots.....only compensated by the gorgeous song of this thrush leading me further and further into the bog.....thinking I must keep going at all costs....I must keep my word and have a proper walk. 

In the end I let myself give up. And took a short cut across an even muddier field back to the car.

I felt proud of myself for letting go ....for giving up...not in the rigid way of it's bad and wrong ...but for seeing this belief doesn't serve me in this case. Willing to forgive myself.

My supper tonight - one of these Feta and Spinach Souffle Muffins that I cooked yesterday -  thanks to a recipe from my sister. 

Mini cheese and veggie souffles - only no flour in the mixture.

I had it with roasted carrots and butternut squash. And a heap of purple sprouting broccoli that I bought in the farmers market this morning.

I realise I have unshakeable faith in fresh green vegetables. An old belief I'm hanging on to.....