Alive and Awake....in ordinariness..

On my walks...recent

robins 

 and 

other 

birdlife

singing 

 in  trees above me

and 

 swimming 

feeding

and preening...oblivious to my camera. 

And in the bright 

summer garden this afternoon

a pair of pigeons

fighting 

 or mating... with a great fluttering of wings.

It wasn't the hottest day yesterday it was today - the hottest April day in London since 1940. 

Hotter than Madrid.

I love it - this heat. It makes me feel alive and awake. And a bit unprepared....unsettled. I have been faffing about most of the afternoon in the house and in and out of the garden...eating my lunch with suncream on....planting the French lavender with my wide brimmed hat on....cutting the grass with my flip-flops on...reading in the shade. 

Feeling like someone I used to be....compelled out of my shadow...into the sun...the force of it calling me...to let in the brightness of my own life.....in all its ordinariness.