This morning I heard something on a Matt Kahn UTube video -Love Is The Answer - which really helped me with my self judgements.
I imagined this conversation between me and my Higher Self.
Me: I'm trying to be good ALL the time.
HS: What ALL the time?
Me: Yes. And loving and patient and joyful and kind.
HS: Mmm. How is that going?
Me: Not well. I fail ALL the time.
HS: What if I told you that it's a spiritual myth that we are supposed to be in ONE state ALL the time. A myth and impossible.
Me: That would be a relief.
HS: You are only supposed to be in the state you are in when you are in it. Not another one. It will change when you love whatever feeling arises.
Me: Instead of thinking I should be better - sweet instead of sour?
HS: It's your shoulds that cause you pain - not the feeling itself.
Me: Phew, thank God for that.
HS: You're welcome.
Last blog for a while - will be back in December.